end of the year bloggg (:

so the year's about to end in 2 days. it's really shocking to me, and i dont want to leave, honestly. leadership taught me so much, and it's going to be so hard saying goodbye to my "daily" routine. from now on, after we graduate, im just going to be a normal student again. and it's going to be really weird not having anywhere to go to when im lonely, not waking up early for school, not staying back to clean up on events, it's going to be really different. leadership was a big impact on me and it changed me. im way more outgoing now, compared to the beginning of middle school. in seventh grade,i would go in front of a big crowd and just mumble my speech and be so nervous. now, i can literally go infront of my class, speak with my loudest and clearest voice, and i am so comfortable with everyone. although there were times in leadership when i wanted out , but im glad mr.ing didnt let me take the easy way. i learned many things in leadership , but i'd have to say one of the biggest things i learned was, if you take the easy way out, you wont learn anything. so always, no matter how hard, take the hard way out, because you are guaranteed to learn something. i learned so much in leadership, i really cant type everything ! that's how much ;p but i've been through a lot and i would never have gotten to the successful person i am today, if it wasnt for leadership. i just want to thank you, mr.ing for everything ^---< but on with the blog... i present to youuuuu, my blog for this year ;3

how i changed in the year.
where do i start /.\? lol well lets start with friend wise. leadership has helped me with so many friendships. i am so friendly now, lol. i say hi to everyone even if they're strangers ;p in the beginning of the year, i was NOT like that xD but im so open now, it aint even funny. leadership also helped me get over a lot of fears. such as the polys, bullies, and all dat. i will literally tell them straight up not to be mean to me, if they do something mean. i wont take an insult from anyone these days ;p lol. overall, leadership helped me gained my confidence a WHOLE lot. i just am so comfortable with everyone ;p the only thing is, when someone tells me something that hurts my feelings, it really bothers me. i'll hold it in for the day, try to be happy, but when i go home and it comes to the night time, i break down and just cry my eyes out. oh yeah, another thing leadership helped me with, it helped me not be so depressed. i used to be so depressed and i would just live a normal life. but this year, i have usually been happy everyday just because i dont like to be depressed because it'll put my friends in a bad mood. leadership also taught me how to be less selfish. when im sad in school, i'll hold it in, and pretend to be really happy, just cuz i dont want to ruin anyone elses day. i feel like if i cry, im asking for attention. and it'll make people feel sad for me all day, and i'll just make their day sad since they spent the whole day feeling bad for me.. and yeah. at the beging of the year, i was really selfish. and now, this ;p it really did change me, a lot more than i realized. another one, im really honest. i havent lied on anything big, since leadership. maybe i did lie a few times, but only on small things like 'im down the street" and ' im only 2 minutes away' but yeah that's all. before, i'd sneak out to go to the store, and i would lie and said i was just around the corner. idk. weird how im such a good person now. there's so much more, i just know it lol, but unfortunately, i cant think of them all so yeah (x

friendships.
moving on to friendships....omg, this year, i made so many new friends i cant even keep count ;3 LOL JK , nah no i really cant ;p but this year, through leadership and kids in leadership, i lost best friends and made some .. i guess i'll just say it, it's not like he'll read my blog anyway, lol. so here it is. the best friend i lost this year which used to be my boy best friend, is bretman. we used to be super close in the beginning of the year. we used to go safeway, eat lunch together, and just idk. he was my boy best friend. but then this happened, and that happened, and then yeah, now we arent bestfriends. oh well. although there are memories which are blurred out now, since he was apart of it, whatever. past already, moving on. the best friend i gained through leadershipp, was yazmeen ! this year, one day when i was lonely and no one in leadership liked me that day, yazmeen was there, and she came over my house. ever since then, she has been my best friend ! well one of them (x but yeah. even though for a while, me yazmeen and bretman were best friends, well, atleast i still have yazmeen ;p and without leadership, we wouldnt have become bestfriends. which is super sad because my life would be a total drag without her..

lessons learned.
i learned, so much. i accomplished all the GLO's. and i just became a better, me. im glad i joined leadership. im glad i made the mistakes i did, because if i didnt, i wouldnt be who i am today! i wouldnt be leaving this school, not wanted to leave because this place actually brang the real me out and made me happy. and honestly, i wont miss the school, obviously, i'll just miss the class its self. this is the one class, where i actually enjoyed coming to everyday. i enjoyed going on tv, making intros, making ID's, and im going to miss mr.ing teaching us leassons by yelling at us, and making us figure out the problem and everything. it was a really great life experience and im going to miss it.

BUT YEAH. so tomorrow's graduation and after that, friday is the very last day we get to be a leadership student. although we'll have the memory of being one, and although our cube will still be there, it'll be sad not seeing that room everyday, and seeing everyone in there. im really thankful i got to be apart of the leadership program my whole middle school time. im going to miss this program and i hope the best for next years class ;') thanks for everything, byeeee .. p.s~ i'll miss writing these blogs even if i'd turn majority of them in late D; byee blogger ! until i sign back in !!

This busy week ! 3 more weeks left !

Omg this literally was such a busy week, i didn't have time to breath ! Between my projects, curriculum night, banquet, grade check , display board due date, i seriously had only the time i was sleeping, to relax. Day after day this whole week i struggled -.- i was always worrying about something. Well here goes the week and classes explainations!

Period 1; this whole week, all we did in this class was work on our 'giving back to the community' project. We could sort of do anything as long as we're giving back and it doesnt really revolved around us. Sooo me and my partner came up with the idea to talk to a new person everyday for two weeks. This week was the last week, so all we were doing during class was planning what exactly we had convos about, and all that stuff. Class is pretty boring though lol

Period 2; in leadership, we just worked on other work we need to get done so that we can all get our grades up.. This whole week we were all working on our personal display boards though, we all procrastinated .---. Lesson learned.

Period 3; this week in science , we're only mostly focusing on stars. Im actually really interested because its a interesting topic lol. Tonight actually or tomorrow morning, is the first day for a week, of the falling stars . Im really excited so im staying up till 4 am just to see it ! Lol and its extra credit ! ;p so yeah..

Period 4; this week in english, we mainly did reading on the book 'holes' you might know the book, it's a very common one. We're reading it to understand that most books do connect to real life situations and that not all books are fake.

Period 5; you know whats weird? Im actually not struggling, for ONCE, in algebra . Like omg, someone knock on wood so i dont start struggling LOL. We've been working on equations for the past 2 weeks, and next week is HSA. I actually have some faith in me to get atleast 320 ahah. Lets pray !

Period 6; band band band. We doin good i guess. We're small kine panicking though. Concert is on may 17th and its going to come soon, i can feel it. Small kine nervous.

Curriculum night & display board; so of course... The only person who was aware that we were all going to wait till last minute to do our personal display board was, mr.ing. It was so sad watching us all struggle and stress .---. LESSON LEARNED. Like omfg. Curriculum night went good. My parents didnt come . You know, the usual (: haha.

Banquet; ohh qurrrl. It was nice decorations and it went well and all, but it was so boring cuz i didnt dance ahah. What ever though.

Explore testing; 3 HOURS LONG . Explain to me how it was that long. It seriously could've been so much easier if we didnt have to go over rules and useless stuff. Irraz. But it was easy ahah.i just wish we could take it nonstop instead of 30 minutes this 30 minutes that. IT AINT ENOUGH TIME.

Well this whole week was busy and i know, weeks will only get busier by the week. Excited , nervous, scared. Lets just see how this all goes '! Talk to you guys next week. Bye !