end of the year bloggg (:

so the year's about to end in 2 days. it's really shocking to me, and i dont want to leave, honestly. leadership taught me so much, and it's going to be so hard saying goodbye to my "daily" routine. from now on, after we graduate, im just going to be a normal student again. and it's going to be really weird not having anywhere to go to when im lonely, not waking up early for school, not staying back to clean up on events, it's going to be really different. leadership was a big impact on me and it changed me. im way more outgoing now, compared to the beginning of middle school. in seventh grade,i would go in front of a big crowd and just mumble my speech and be so nervous. now, i can literally go infront of my class, speak with my loudest and clearest voice, and i am so comfortable with everyone. although there were times in leadership when i wanted out , but im glad mr.ing didnt let me take the easy way. i learned many things in leadership , but i'd have to say one of the biggest things i learned was, if you take the easy way out, you wont learn anything. so always, no matter how hard, take the hard way out, because you are guaranteed to learn something. i learned so much in leadership, i really cant type everything ! that's how much ;p but i've been through a lot and i would never have gotten to the successful person i am today, if it wasnt for leadership. i just want to thank you, mr.ing for everything ^---< but on with the blog... i present to youuuuu, my blog for this year ;3

how i changed in the year.
where do i start /.\? lol well lets start with friend wise. leadership has helped me with so many friendships. i am so friendly now, lol. i say hi to everyone even if they're strangers ;p in the beginning of the year, i was NOT like that xD but im so open now, it aint even funny. leadership also helped me get over a lot of fears. such as the polys, bullies, and all dat. i will literally tell them straight up not to be mean to me, if they do something mean. i wont take an insult from anyone these days ;p lol. overall, leadership helped me gained my confidence a WHOLE lot. i just am so comfortable with everyone ;p the only thing is, when someone tells me something that hurts my feelings, it really bothers me. i'll hold it in for the day, try to be happy, but when i go home and it comes to the night time, i break down and just cry my eyes out. oh yeah, another thing leadership helped me with, it helped me not be so depressed. i used to be so depressed and i would just live a normal life. but this year, i have usually been happy everyday just because i dont like to be depressed because it'll put my friends in a bad mood. leadership also taught me how to be less selfish. when im sad in school, i'll hold it in, and pretend to be really happy, just cuz i dont want to ruin anyone elses day. i feel like if i cry, im asking for attention. and it'll make people feel sad for me all day, and i'll just make their day sad since they spent the whole day feeling bad for me.. and yeah. at the beging of the year, i was really selfish. and now, this ;p it really did change me, a lot more than i realized. another one, im really honest. i havent lied on anything big, since leadership. maybe i did lie a few times, but only on small things like 'im down the street" and ' im only 2 minutes away' but yeah that's all. before, i'd sneak out to go to the store, and i would lie and said i was just around the corner. idk. weird how im such a good person now. there's so much more, i just know it lol, but unfortunately, i cant think of them all so yeah (x

friendships.
moving on to friendships....omg, this year, i made so many new friends i cant even keep count ;3 LOL JK , nah no i really cant ;p but this year, through leadership and kids in leadership, i lost best friends and made some .. i guess i'll just say it, it's not like he'll read my blog anyway, lol. so here it is. the best friend i lost this year which used to be my boy best friend, is bretman. we used to be super close in the beginning of the year. we used to go safeway, eat lunch together, and just idk. he was my boy best friend. but then this happened, and that happened, and then yeah, now we arent bestfriends. oh well. although there are memories which are blurred out now, since he was apart of it, whatever. past already, moving on. the best friend i gained through leadershipp, was yazmeen ! this year, one day when i was lonely and no one in leadership liked me that day, yazmeen was there, and she came over my house. ever since then, she has been my best friend ! well one of them (x but yeah. even though for a while, me yazmeen and bretman were best friends, well, atleast i still have yazmeen ;p and without leadership, we wouldnt have become bestfriends. which is super sad because my life would be a total drag without her..

lessons learned.
i learned, so much. i accomplished all the GLO's. and i just became a better, me. im glad i joined leadership. im glad i made the mistakes i did, because if i didnt, i wouldnt be who i am today! i wouldnt be leaving this school, not wanted to leave because this place actually brang the real me out and made me happy. and honestly, i wont miss the school, obviously, i'll just miss the class its self. this is the one class, where i actually enjoyed coming to everyday. i enjoyed going on tv, making intros, making ID's, and im going to miss mr.ing teaching us leassons by yelling at us, and making us figure out the problem and everything. it was a really great life experience and im going to miss it.

BUT YEAH. so tomorrow's graduation and after that, friday is the very last day we get to be a leadership student. although we'll have the memory of being one, and although our cube will still be there, it'll be sad not seeing that room everyday, and seeing everyone in there. im really thankful i got to be apart of the leadership program my whole middle school time. im going to miss this program and i hope the best for next years class ;') thanks for everything, byeeee .. p.s~ i'll miss writing these blogs even if i'd turn majority of them in late D; byee blogger ! until i sign back in !!

This busy week ! 3 more weeks left !

Omg this literally was such a busy week, i didn't have time to breath ! Between my projects, curriculum night, banquet, grade check , display board due date, i seriously had only the time i was sleeping, to relax. Day after day this whole week i struggled -.- i was always worrying about something. Well here goes the week and classes explainations!

Period 1; this whole week, all we did in this class was work on our 'giving back to the community' project. We could sort of do anything as long as we're giving back and it doesnt really revolved around us. Sooo me and my partner came up with the idea to talk to a new person everyday for two weeks. This week was the last week, so all we were doing during class was planning what exactly we had convos about, and all that stuff. Class is pretty boring though lol

Period 2; in leadership, we just worked on other work we need to get done so that we can all get our grades up.. This whole week we were all working on our personal display boards though, we all procrastinated .---. Lesson learned.

Period 3; this week in science , we're only mostly focusing on stars. Im actually really interested because its a interesting topic lol. Tonight actually or tomorrow morning, is the first day for a week, of the falling stars . Im really excited so im staying up till 4 am just to see it ! Lol and its extra credit ! ;p so yeah..

Period 4; this week in english, we mainly did reading on the book 'holes' you might know the book, it's a very common one. We're reading it to understand that most books do connect to real life situations and that not all books are fake.

Period 5; you know whats weird? Im actually not struggling, for ONCE, in algebra . Like omg, someone knock on wood so i dont start struggling LOL. We've been working on equations for the past 2 weeks, and next week is HSA. I actually have some faith in me to get atleast 320 ahah. Lets pray !

Period 6; band band band. We doin good i guess. We're small kine panicking though. Concert is on may 17th and its going to come soon, i can feel it. Small kine nervous.

Curriculum night & display board; so of course... The only person who was aware that we were all going to wait till last minute to do our personal display board was, mr.ing. It was so sad watching us all struggle and stress .---. LESSON LEARNED. Like omfg. Curriculum night went good. My parents didnt come . You know, the usual (: haha.

Banquet; ohh qurrrl. It was nice decorations and it went well and all, but it was so boring cuz i didnt dance ahah. What ever though.

Explore testing; 3 HOURS LONG . Explain to me how it was that long. It seriously could've been so much easier if we didnt have to go over rules and useless stuff. Irraz. But it was easy ahah.i just wish we could take it nonstop instead of 30 minutes this 30 minutes that. IT AINT ENOUGH TIME.

Well this whole week was busy and i know, weeks will only get busier by the week. Excited , nervous, scared. Lets just see how this all goes '! Talk to you guys next week. Bye !

This weeeek . Busy and confusing. That is all.

So this blog is late because when i came home from dress shopping last night, i totally just went on my bed and crashed lol. But this week . To be honest, i was so lost . LOL. It was busy. Another to be honest, i was confused and i got nothing done really. Which is why, im spending today, sunday, recovering. Tonight, i shall finish my personal display board hopefully >____^ days have been the same this week . Monday through friday. Same crap, just a different day. Bleh. 4th quarter is so not happenin for me. We all procrastinated with our personal display boards and we didnt start working on it till now . Which was a dumb decision because now we be stuck with all these projects and we be busy af these days. Which is why mister ing assigned thid project in january. But we didnt realize that, until he told us on friday. Now we are all stuck, procrastinating . Sad da lifes. Besides that though, heres the week ;d

Period 1; social studies ~
This week, in this class we mainly focused on the project we're doing which is giving back to the community . Me and my partner mahea decided to have a conversation with someone everyday and get to know them. Great outcome actually though. So far, i talked to many new people, and actually got to know them . Now, me and mahea just need to get a poster board, and put together the project. I hope we get an A because we are being honest with this project, and we're actually taking the time to talk to different people . Lolol. Just saying ;p

Period 2; leadership ~
Well like i said, personal display board is mainly what we've been focused on all week. Also, banquet and class day is coming up this week. Im really nervous because i dont want to make any mistakes this week cuz i know its going to be busy.. Kind of stressful... And i know if anyone messes up, mr.ing is going to loose it ... So i just hope and pray everything goes right. We also worked on the interviews . It was unexpected because non of us checked webgrader and seen it coming. We ended up not finishing, and everyone is getting an f for that assignment. I plan on having them finish tomorrow morning hopefully.

Period 3; science~
We had a project for this class too. It ws on stars. I presented for extra points, and im glad because now i have an A (: yay .

Period 4; english~
This week we had HSA testing and im actually not proud of what i got . In 6th grade, i got 366. You'd think i would get smarter. No. I got 322 ;( so depressing . Ugh. Disapointed for days /.\

Period 5;math~
Ugh i hate math, and the teacher hates me.

Period 6; band~
Band is going actually pretty good. Learning new catchy songs like 'can you feel the love tonight ' 'dahil sayo' and more. Its catchy and i love playing.

So thats the week. Hope you guys had a good one '

this week ~~ practice practice practice .!

so this week huh? it was thee best week yet ! i was determined. ha ha just kidding i actually gave up on Wednesday when i thought i wasn't going to finish my AR. butt then on Thursday, thanks to Nicki , i started reading ! ^o^ the next day, (Friday) i finished my AR and i was able to go to the track meet on Saturday ! other than that, Monday-Friday, everyday after school was practice, except Tuesday (Mr.ing had meeting) but everyday we got closer and closer to Saturday which got me more nervous by the day. and also, it didn't help that on Monday i hurt my back after sprinting the last straight away ;o that shtuff hurted D; the whole week i had the back pain, which made it super hard for me to practice my long and short distance -.- but when came Saturday, when we was on our way to moanalua , i was super nervous. my stomach was turning, and i felt like i was going to die. when we arrived, dang. that school is nicceee ;o their track looked 1000x bigger than ours. their bleachers is pretty nice, and idk it just was nice overall. butt , the speaker, and the people that was dealing with the ribbons, straight up dumb. messing up event placings, giving ribbons to wrong people, saying ilima wrong, irraz. i wanted to go up to her, and slap her! when i raced, for 50 meter, i wasnt last lol, for 1 mile, i was 5th , and for 2 miles, i came in 5th place.. overall, I'm proud of myself because atleast i didnt die (: LOL we all did good. even though some of us didnt get ribbons, i still give them props for running and finishing the events they did. overall, girls came in 3rd and boys came in 2nd ^_____^ we came back with 2 trophies ;3 now to the weeek i guessss ;p

social studies ~ we are doing a project on giving back to the community, soooo i decided to go and partner up with mahea, and now, our plan is to go volunteer at ronald mcdonald house . im actually happy for this project because it has a lot of meaning and it has a good purpose.

leadership ~ leadership this whole week all we did during our classes was working on work that we didnt do... and yeaaah.

science ~ in science we're working on a project that is mainly about stars.. it's easy, i just keep forgetting it inside the class room -.- im going to pick it up today though.

english ~ for english, we are mainly doing catchup work and reading the book holes, which i actually enjoy reading lol.

math ~ wellll. all i have to say is, i need to catch up on that and get myself togetherrr.

band ~ we are working on new songs, such as dahil sayo and can you feel the love tonight. and omg alll i have to say is, it was love at first playyy. i love these songs and i would hate to have them replaced. also, our aloha concert is coming upp.

CAREER DAY ~` I ALMOST FORGOTTTT. so career day was on friday, and let me say. the food was good after words. LOL. but i hated having library as my thing -.- for one hour. MR.STEVE. how irrating. butt props was, my crush was in the first session ;3 so yeah. 2nd session was boring AF though (x

and that was my week! bye guys ! i hope you all had a good week too ! (:

Orientation

Okay so orientation. It actually went pretty good (: heres the days though & deep detail into it..

Tuesday (holomua & ewa beach elem.) - this day went well. We started a little late, mr.lee wasnt there to speak though, which saved time. After starting late, ms.shinjo spoke, and then all the speakers presented, except for me and trisha and laila, since we were after the fashion show.. When the speakers presented, it was our first time presenting infront of an audience, so of course we was nervous ! ;p after serena presented, she introduced the tour and how we were going to take them on one. I had a group from holomua yellow track, which actually had some of my old friends in. I miss them ;d i still remember when i came to my orientation ! ;o time flys. During the tour though, we showed them the courts, courtyard, BLR , GLR, buildings, library, greenmile, and others. We also stopped by the band room for a short mini concert, which the kids liked (: when we came back from the tour, bret spoke, and introduced the fashion show. By this time, everyone was last minute getting ready, of course we're all nervous we're going to mess up, checking our outfits, making sure everything's right... And then it was show time ! Period 4 was first, then it was period 6, then my period was last, and i was really nervous ;p we walked in through the fog, with my shades on, roxi with her snap back on, trisha with her phone out, lol it was a very fun experience & im pretty sure we all enjoyed it. After we preformed, i had to rush and change b/c i was the next speaker, with fee's. i was scared i was going to mess up, which i actually ended up doing , i introduced trisha instead of laila and omg. I thought i was going to die -.-' but i didnt. LOL. Thank god. But after me was laila, and then trisha. Then we were done (: after, mr.ing told us even though we started late, we actually spoke too fast at first lol. He said that the first speakers, took only 5 minutes for all of them to speak. Which is really really fast. Lol. But overall, this orientation was good '

Tuesday night (parents) - this one, was similar except, we had no dress code fashion show, and also, we didnt do the tour. Mr.lee spoke at this one, nd tbh, him and ms.shinjo took kind of long to speak (x lolol. Just saying though. When i presented, i messed up. AGAIN. I introduced laila -.-' but it was supposed to be serena !! I was like. LORD TAKE ME D; like omg. You dont even know -.-'

Thursday (pohakea , kaimiloa & iroquios)- this day, mr.lee & ms.shinjo spoke. They took forever =_= like you dont even understand . Lol. We started super late though, which made us even more frustrated that ms.shinjo them was taking long. We knew something was going to have to be cut out, but we just didnt know yet cuz mr.ing never mention anything so yeah. When we did tours, i took pohakea. I was with all boys, a small group. Yazmeens brother was there, lol. And his friend was tryig to hit me up >~< it was nasty. He was all 'aye can i have yo numba' like niggah please swerve im trying to take you on a tour. LOL. It was so adorable though, some of them are so tiny and just adorbs c; dont even look ready for middle (x lol too cute & tiny. Overall, my group was friendly though (: they all listened, and they asked questions here and there. They were all so concerned about the basketball team too haha. And yeah. After the fashion show though, we never had time for fee's b/c the bell was going to ring already and we had to get them out before everyone come eat. So yeah, that was today ! I missed this nights one though, i had leeward festival, which was the bomb ahah.


And thats all ! Hope its long enough ahaha, overall , orientation was gee' and all our hard work, paid off ! ^--^

*3rd week of school**

this past week. i still didnt reach my AR.. which i hope to have done soon. all my grades need to be good by thursday, or i cant go to the track meet on saturday. and if i cant go to the track meet, im going to diee. all that hard work for nothing. so i need to raise my grades. NEED. i also need to do math worksheets i didnt complete to raise my grade to an A. and also i need to do my personal display board. and a few science worksheets i didnt do. i set myself up for all this stress. bleh. i feel like im so stressed my hair is going to fall out after turning white ;d seriously. but here's what happened this week !

orientation~~ orientation went well and smooth. i liked it. im not going to talk a lot about orienation though, since after this blog, im making an orientation blog ;p so yeh. but it was good, and im proud of us ;3

band concert~~ leeward festival was on thursday and i have to say, i feel like all that hard work paid off ^---^ we sounded pro. i mean, not the best, but it was good ;p im proud of the band because we went out there and gave it our all. i also got to see inside of ewa makai. it is sooo nice. oh god. like i couldnt even handle the beauty .---. that school does not even have one similarity with a prison ! it is nice, and gorgeous and its the perfect school. i wish there was no ilima, and just that school ;d

hsa~~ hsa science was this week, and let me tell you, im so dissapointed -.-' i mean, a lot of people did bad, which makes me feel like, well we all did bad so its alright i guess. but i got 288 ! i wasnt dissapointed mostly, i was just frustrated because i couldnt remember ! they brang up stuff from like, first quarter ! "waves" omg. i died. i couldnt remember wth sesmestic waves was, or the scale or anything. i felt brain dead ~! i bombed hsa, i couldnt even. bleh.

track~~ so this week, i also found out that for track, im running the mile, 3000, and 50. im really scared, and excited. i know i really need to practice running the 3000 because i need to get my body used to it, and i need to improve my timing. yesterday, it took me 17 minutes and 58 seconds to run the 3000 (2 miles) im actually really proud because i only stopped 2 times to walk for 20 seconds each, and i didnt stop other than that. and i thought i was going to take like 25 minutes, tbh. but i didnt ;3 im so proud, lol. but i was ballin in sweat ! from my barely there eye brows, to my bushy hair. omg. it was blazin hot out there ! my stomache was like, pushing, like it was stiff .---. omg i thought i was going to pass out ! but no,  i made it aha. i hope there's slower people at moanalua because i really want to get a ribbon ;d wish mee luckk that i get better.

and that was this week ! thanksss.

late blog...*2nd week of school*

first week of april ! i thought i had everything organized, haha, nope.

monday ~~ in math, we did a lesson with the student teacher. it wasnt anything new, it was a touch up on old things we learned. linear equations. the topic was kind of blurry and it was hard to understand the lesson, the way she teached it. but it was okay, i kind of understood. but, not really that much, which is sort of why i still havent done the homework. but im going to do it this weekend, hopefully i still remember how, and i took good notes. but she collected the notes so . yeah. in science, we learned about the planets in our solar system. mercury, venus , earth , mars, etc. it was interesting, but we learned it ms.janies way, which was really fast & it took some getting used to. in social studies, we talked about when lincoln freed the slaves & we read a few cartoons.

tuesday ~~ during period two, we worked on orientation and we added the fog machine and lights to our dance to make it more interesting. it did, ahah. the fog was making us all laugh though ;p in band, we were also practicing for the leeward band festival. which was the same day as 2nd day orientation. besides band and leadership, in english we didnt do much.

wednesday ~~ we had beach clean up this day, which was actually reallly fun :) we stayed the whole day at haubush. clean up was only for like 1 hour, then the rest of the time was free time ^___^ i took pictures lol . it was a nice day too, i wish we were able to go swimming cuz it was hot af .--. but other than it being hot, the weather was perfect . i got sunburn. LOL. could tell cuz later that day, we had grad. meeting. i had sunburn all over my face (x lol but its ok because i had fun. the grad. meeting also had a good outcome. we all had to pay attention jus tincase someone calls a101 and we answer, we have to give them the info. so yeah.

thursday & friday ~~ science: in science we touched up on all the planets, learned more details on the outer planets . social studies: we learned about share cropping, which is like when african americans worked for white farm owners . they picked crops for them, and in return, they got half the crops they picked each day. there was little catches here and there though. like on the contract. it said things such as," you must pay my monthly rent" which is a total rip off, to me. leadership: in leadership, we worked on the dance some more. practiced it, so that it can get better and look more entertaining.

and that was that week.

late blog... ~ **first week of school** 2 days!

okay i know this blog is obviously super late. but I'm still going to do it. let me start by saying a few things so i don't have to explain myself in the next two blogs I'm going to do (second week blog & third week blog)... i am so stressed it just isn't even funny. i don't know if i changed, or what, but i feel like everyone just straight up hates me ! they get mad at the littlest things that i do. my math teacher. i was trying to clerify *sp?* how to do the problem and then she yells at me. "heighlee i am so sick of hearing your voice! can you just be quiet and do your work!" and i explain to her "no i was just asking if im doing to problem right!" and she tells me, "you want me to move you? call mr.ing?" like omg. you act like im killing someone ! you act like im screaming when im asking my classmate something. i dont even understand how i was such a bother. i whispered very quietly the question. i swear, ms.gouveia and my mom, they have a lot in common. always yelling at me for certain things, when others do it too but they dont yell at them, only me. haha. irritating.. now that i cleared all of that up. lets get started with my first week back, which was only 2 dayss.

wednesday~ i had odd periods today. in math, we had the teranova testing. it was a little confusing. we had to finish around 50 questions in 1 class period , no exceptions. i kind of wish we knew we were going to take it. cuz it was the first period, and i didnt get good sleep the night before. so i felt like i was going to pass out during the test. i literally couldnt even see the test that good. was blurry because i was low on energy from the no sleep, and yeah. oh wells, it happened. in science, we all met our new teacher for 4th quarter. ms.janie. she's actually a good teacher. she's funny, keeps us entertained, while teaching us at the same time. she's a good teacher & im glad ms.fujimoto picked her. the last class of the day was social studies. it was same as every other class. we learned the leasson, and then homework assignment was a summary of what we learned. same same.

thursday~ this day was even periods. im not going to explain every class, because it's the same mostly everytime i have even periods. except for leadership, thats the only class we change up what we do. since spirit week was done, i think today we were cleaning up some spirit week stuff, and starting orientation stuff.

and that was all that happened this week. sorry this is really late.

quarter 3 is donee.

as quarter 3 ends, we all prepare for quarter 4, hoping we'll get better grades, hoping we wont screw up, hoping we wont "forget" , hoping we wont mess up like we did in quarter 3. but all we can do is hope. i really hope quarter 4 will be good. all this whole school year, honestly? stressful af'. it'd be nice if quarter 4 went smooth. if we all got along, if i got straight A's on every assignment , if no one in leadership messed up on anything... if quarter 4 could be like that, wow. enough talking now, lets talk about quarter 3.

pro's

now, the reason im starting with pro's? there was more cons then pros. so mine as well just start off with the good stuff, and end with the bad stuff. right? some pros this quarter was, well some pro's was it took a lot to "break" me this quarter. or in other words, get me into a bad mood. aka, piss me off. i had a good temper, i guess you can say. also, track is a big pro for me. i'm actually involved in something i thought i'd never do. like, im proud of myself for trying it, and coming through with it. lol. i actually ran a mile. who would've thought, the girl who said she would never run, would run a mile. more so, race others in a mile. and although i didn't place for the mile, i did try and i didn't get last . which makes me proud of myself ;p another pro about this quarter is that my group was a happy group (: we barely had any tension or hate between each other. throughout the whole quarter actually, my period was doing good. we weren't messing up that much... but towards the end.. i'll talk more about it in the cons section.another pro was that we had spirit week. and although we had some problems, here and there throughout that week, the last day, omg. a day to remember actually. our school was full of spirit left and right. it was just a happy day. and yeah, i think that was all the pros throughout this quarter.

con's

lord, where do i start? especially the last few weeks of this quarter. well, let me start with some con's that was just happening the whole quarter. a broken family. tbh, i think of all the leadership kids as one big family. this quarter, we fell apart. some people, that were the closest before, just broke up. their friendships ended, and everything went downhill after that. and this affected everyone in leadership b/c these people would ignore each other, give attitude to one another, and it didnt help when one wouldnt help another. espically when one needed help ,and the other wouldnt even. it just really sucked. leadership relationships fell apart. another con was me giving up. there was a time when i just broke and gave up on trying .. assignments is one. i started to get lazy, so i gave up. stopped doing worksheets for alg. the worse part was knowing that i could've done it, i just chose not to.. and now look. a D as a final grade. yay. im so dissapointed. i know i could've done way better if i just did my work. another con was not reading. i gave up on reading after a while. i felt like i should just stop because i wasnt going to make it anyway. then my period was a con. my kids mostly. i dont know how to guide them. as hard as i try tell them not to do this, be good, do this, do that, i guess they just dont totally understand. they screwed up, and screwed all of us up. not cool. i guess you can count this whole quarter as a con. it was a big blurry mess. that i could've fixed, but i guess decided not to. sad right?

emotions

there was times in this quarter when i would just want to die to get away from all this stress. where i just wanted to drop to the ground and not get back up. where i just wanted to hit my head on the wall, punch the wall, there was times when i just wanted to yell in peoples face. tell them the straight up truth, because they were just that irritating. some people really need a reality check. now, the only people who ever made me mad was the people who are rude, ignorant , selfish, or just straight up irritating. some dont know how to be nice, which really got on my nerves. when they would, for example, slap someone, and expect the person not to care. but when they slap um back, they go all "wtf was that for?!" mode. like pfft. you know what, you need a taste of your own medicine, so good for you you get slapped. good. so as you can tell, this quarter i've been irritated to da max.

4th quarter goals

i hope for fourth quarter to be smooth. i hope i finish my AR early. i hope no one screws up. i hope we can actually work together.. i just hope everything goes well in quarter 4. everyone should know how to do everything by now, so we shouldnt have any mess ups anymore. its the last quarter of my last year at ilima. i just hope it turns out well. im really going to give each assignment my all. im going to study hard, im going to turn in every assignment on time, im going to put my 110% effort in school. and thats all i guess. so yeah. overall, i hope this can be a good 4th quarter .---. 

spirit week blog. late.

spirit week was hectic. i seen it coming though. i mean, it's the first time ilima was doing spirit week for awhile, of course it wasn't going to be flawless.

observations overall
my observations overall . first, i noticed everyone was working separately. this isn't a good thing. we're supposed to work together, so we all know who's doing what, this would've helped with people asking less questions. next, i noticed not a lot of communication. either someone wasn't listening, someone was trying to do things on their own, or someone was just not agreeing with others. it was a mess this way. some ignored others, which really didn't help with the problems we already had. i have to admit, i didn't help with my crappy attitude.

positives and negs about dress out days
positives about dress out. the positives of dress out days was that there wasn't a day where no one dressed out. even though not a lot of kids dressed out, there was always at least 10 people at the least that would dress out. also, some people went all out on certain days, which was entertaining to watch ;p negs on dress out days. some negatives about dress out days was that not as much kids as we expected to dress out, did. i was actually pretty disappointed in a lot of people for not dressing out on certain days. some negatives that had to do with people not dressing out was b/c we had to wear uniform still. this didn't help a lot and also convinced people that there was no point to dress out.

2 ideas for new dress out days & what days i'd replace them with
polka dot day --> culture day
turn back the clock pre-1950's --> turn back the clock before 2000's
the reason i would change polka dot day into culture day is because culture day would be pretty interesting to see. espicially since their is different nationality kids here in ewa beach. also, polka dot was boring. atleast at culture day, hopefully people would actually come through, and maybe be dressed in like a kimono, or you know, dressed like a immigrant, or plantation worker, lol idk, thats why it'd be interesting to see. espically the creative people. i'd also change turn back the clock pre 1950's to turn back the clock before 2000's because it gives kids a wide selection from anytime before 2000. they could even dress like egyptians if they wanted.

4 suggestions for mini activities 
one suggestion for a mini activity is draw a certain thing. this would be a good idea because we could say, for social studies, who can draw abraham lincoln the best . my second suggestion is life size problems. we can cut out big card board multiplication, division, add,subtract etc. signs, and then numbers 1-10 and then just make a answer, and then time whoever can figure it out the fastest. for example.. you have a timer ready. have each homeroom kid come in the room one at a time. you have the number 27 down, and all the other numbers and signs on the side. whoever can make put together the problem the fastest, wins. lol is that confusing? and then for english, we should have a spelling contest and whoever is the last one to spell the word correctly, wins. and lastly for science, we should see who can draw the solar system the fastest/nicest.

1 suggestion for big activity
a suggestion i have for a big activity is a maze. we can make it out of cardboard. have them find certain pieces, and then whoever has them all at the end, wins. this would be a good idea because the teams that stand on the 2nd level, can look down and see where their rep, is and it'd be funny to watch.

problems and how to avoid them next year
problems we had. not communicating, not listening, and not agreeing. also frustration. some gave atitude to others, disrespected others, and others already had problems with each other in the first place. to avoid these problems next year? stay committed, and push all your problems between each other , aside for awhile. this would've really helped. if we were all just friends and friendly during spirit week. it woudl've been way easier than it was....

overall? spirit week was . pretty good i guess. i hope everyone enjoyed. it was just hella stressful thats all.

this weeeek.

im so irritated. with everyone. i have been irritated for the longest time already, im getting used to it. 7th graders and fricken irritating. MOST OF THEM ALL ARE WANNABE'S. FAKE. it irritates the crap out of me. and lately, i've lost a lot of my close friends. i guess you can say they stopped being my friend. most of them. some of them i pushed away myself. but the main point of this is that although i lost a lot of friends this week, it was for the best  i guess. this whole year, it's just not that good. and its only march. haha. im just telling them the truth. if the truth hurts and if it costs a friendship for you to hear the truth, then fine. at least i told you the straight up truth. i mean honestly, i didnt tell all of them the truth. but majority, i did. bretman for example. i hit him and that's why we aren't friends anymore. and yeah he was a close friend. but atleast i gave him the truth. in a physical way. he hits the loads of people, they forgive him. he slapped so many of us, we forgave him. i hit him a few times, omg, end of the world. sorry bout it. at least now he knows how we felt. so i have no reason to apologize to him or even try and be his friend. who wants to be friends with someone who is mean AF to people he doesnt like?? i wouldnt want to be his friend again. he's too mean to be honest. the way he treats megan literally makes me want to slap him everytime he insults her. and then he tells trixie i thought her btq had ugly stuff and the price was expensive. STOP EASE DROPPING STUPID -ITCH . WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE SPREADING RUMORS? and then i hear that trixie told yazmeen, " i dont get why people dont like her because she talks about everyone." like, ok. speechless to be honest. if people want to hate me for telling them the truth, fine. but today at the car show when me and bret were "talking" i felt so dumb. arguing with someone who is just a waste of my time. i felt dumb wasting my breath arguing with him ! like are you serious?! k sorry for ranting. moving on, SPIRIT WEEK. this week was too stressful. maybe if i had good grades since monday, i wouldnt have been so stressed. the problems about spirit week? people coming in late, people not doing anything, people missing jobs, people not focusing, just people not doing the obvious. IRRITATING. thats literally all i have to say. dress out wasnt that bad the last couple of days. cheeroff was good. me and megan got in a huge argument on monday, and well our "friendship" improved. which is good. we have our moments. i was just mad. she left me there, clueless. wtf. but its over now. its just been a long stressful week. today, saturday at the car show, it went well. i just want to fly away to a different state. i suck at everything. ugh. i cant do anything without getting judged. i have so much regrets there literally isnt enough paper for me to write them all. k. thats all for this week. i hope this blog doesnt come out short. but i hope you guys all have a good week. OH YEAH. what i wanted to talk about . lastly, 7th graders. some seventh graders need to open there eyes. all they are seeing right now? boys her, boys there, all they do is revolve around boys ! i honestly have never seen so much girls thirsty for attention. seriously. who puts " ___ is the reason i cry.." attention whore. k bye have a good week see you guys all next week.

look through all your flaws and get real. (this weeks blog)

if your wondering why the title is "look through all your flaws and get real." its because this week and today (Saturday) i honestly got different point of views from a lot of different friends. also, i put that as a caption because I'm trying to say stop focusing on your flaws, and just live your life how you want to . lately I've noticed ALOT of my acquaintances have been just trying to impress everyone. and its pretty obvious that its because they have a lot of insecurities and they just care what everyone else thinks. and its getting hella irritating. "i dont want to dress like that ! he'll see me ! hell no ! " like are you serious. who cares what he thinks! nd yes, i have to admit , i get like this too sometimes. but at least i eventually come to my senses. but some girls are C-R-A-Z-Y. you are NOT better than every one else. so what they're smart. so what they might act "weird". so what they can be a little whack looking. AT LEAST THEY'RE ALL TRUE FRIENDS TO EACH OTHER. my friends that i usually hang out with during school "in the circle" are all just. idk. NOT ALL but most of them talk behind each others back, call each other names, gossip about each other, and then next thing you know " omg your like one of my good friends ! " ugh. and when they go talk to the " kids by the library" ... "omg it feels so weird hanging by them.." like seriously?! no. your actually on a LOWER class then them. they are all true friends. they dont talk about each other, they talk together about plans to go cruise and have sleepovers. unlike us. pfft. i dont even want to hang in that stupid circle. some girls in there think they're better nd all. no. you look stupid k, stop. K NOW TALKING ABOUT MY SCHOOL WISE WEEK (x

 spirit week is next week, and things are getting more stressful each and every day. espcially it doesnt help that my grades are dropping like anchors ;( i need to fix um'. hopefully i can... or i cant go to track. and like, i actually like track. i wouldn't think i'd like it, but i enjoy running everyday, even if i suck. LOL. i try though.. but for leadership, we practiced our dance, nd we planted our seeds this week ! and omg i forgot to water it .--. shucks.. and next week's spirit week already. i need to situate my self TONIGHT because i aint got no time to waste. this week is the 2nd to the last week of quarter 3. and then we have spring break, and bam. its quarter 4, the last quarter of 8th grade. yayers. but tonight, i seriously need to do the loads of assignments.. i need to organize what im going to wear everyday for spirit week, get my pennies and silvers ready for penny wars. i need to do some science LSA's, math worksheets, and i think thats all. oh wait, and my social studies paragraph. and on the side of that, i think im going to organize my btq.. the btq. lord. i think thats the reason im so dang stressed ! like gawd. if i cannot keep it together, i might just have to... Nah i love it too much . LOL. i just need to organize myself, or it needs to go. out the windoe. because its a foe. taking me down loe. (x lol. but yeah. that was all for this week i guess.. see ya guys next week, have a happy sunday guise.

blog of the weeek.

it was a long week. honestly, it felt like it flew by quick, but alot just was happening left and right. i joined track. yay. and before i start talking on and on, yes this is a late blog.my classes this week were actually not that bad. we finished up all of our projects finally. in leadership, idk. i feel like im wasting my breath sometimes.i tell people in leadership to do this, do that, but they dont listen. they "ignore" me. like you know what, listen up because you cant do this on your own. your not all that okay, so just listen to us. i honestly feel like everyone in leadership should respect everyone. its irritating when us leaders have to take responsibility for you when you mess up on something we told you exactly what to do, but you just ignored us at that moment. like, you do not know okay? there are somethings that we know, that you dont. we also went to our teams homerooms every homeroom morning to show what to wear and not wear on spirit week. im kind of excited for spirit week, yet scared because my team doesnt even know our cheer. my period is kind of MIA. alot have been absent here and there, and this whole week i dont think we had a single period where we were all there. but overall, this week was messy. i didnt pull myself together like i said i would, i actually gave up. and tbh, nothing's getting better for me. i dont know how im  going to change, but i have to. i dont know when i'll change, but i have to. i dont know when i'll stop talking alot, but i have to. i dont know when i'll stop being lazy, but i have to. i dont know when i'll start actually listening in class, but i have to.i dont know when i'll make my parents proud, but i have to. whats wrong with me .---. i can only hope and pray that this upcoming week, i'll change. every other week is the same thing. i write a blog saying how " im going to change and make things different and be better" but i never do. my grades are falling. im honestly just giving up. i feel like just picking up , and moving to a whole different city, just so i can ditch all this crap. i cannot handle anymore. i think the reason why im so screwed up now, is because i started badly. i didnt give it my all from the beginning of 7th grade. i should've tried hard, i should've studied for quizes, i should've set my standards high. but i didnt, and thats why i am who i am today. im just so irritated with everyone. so much stress ! its killing me ;d but i think i can do it all, im just not trying hard "enough". so this weekend, i decided to knock off some things that distract me. first of all, having a thing with someone. i had a thing with this boy, and we were really close. i told him i dont want to talk to him anymore. i did this because honestly, he's a distraction. so yeah. no more him. hopefully i can do better now. its going to be hard because i have him every class every odd day, but its ok. i'll learn to ignore him. as much as i dont want to, it's for the best, and i need to get at my best. to be quieter, im going to start listening to more music. concentrate more. focus more. music helps alot with that. im also going to try be more independent. i hate when people think i CANT stop talking. i can. i can go silent for as long as i want. i CHOOSE to talk alot. why? because thats me. but i think i should change that. because i think people get "irritated". even my parents tell me i talk way to much. its to the point where i tell them about my day, and they say "okay heighlee! we get it. we feel like we were there already. you dont have to explain everything you did. we dont care." like seriously? i keep them updated because i want them to know im open. i want them to know im not hiding anything. but no. i shouldn't even waste my breathe anymore. just whatever. to do my homework more, im going to focus during class, and put homework before other things such as my btq and all. and im going to do it the day it's assigned so it's ready to be turned in next class already. as for reading, AR was due last week. i obviously cant change anything about that, but just read faster next quarter. for being lazy, im going to change by doing everything before i sit down, and watch TV. im going to do all my chores before i go on my phone. im going to finish all my homework before i take a nap. and thats all i think... hopefully these changes start tomorrow. i cant handle struggling anymore. i cant handle having a D in a class i know i can get atleast a B in. especially when honestly, i know i can get a A in that class, if i studied harder, and did my work on time. if i honestly wasnt lazy and i did all my work at my 101% best, i would have an A in every class. i hope i can step it up this week and full on change. i want to get good grades. i want my parents to be proud. i want to be different already because right now, my life sucks. k bye bloggers . have a good week. i think im going to go work on yearbook now... k bye.

busy busy week.

this week was depressing as ever -.- balloons, roses, chocolates, it was terrible. nah. its just like. everything was so sad this week and i honestly feel like it was nobodies good week. as in, we all had a bad, stressful week. im so irritated. i just wish i could redo this new year. but obviously, i cant. so idk i guess i just have to start from today and hope for the best. but like i dont want to. i want to redo this new year, so i can make different choices with certain things, and do different things. i know they say everything happens for a reason, but i believe that things would be better if i could redo it. seriously. moving on to why my week was bad again. well for one, my crush didnt ask me to be my valentine, when he said "i might ask you" and he sweet talked me and all. like seriously dude. you make me all excited and then bam. you do something to just make me hate you. so he told me he was guna ask me, and all that. and then, come monday, roxi tells me she gota tell me something, even though she knows she isnt supposed to. then i was like, ok (: nothing can make me sad anyway because he's going to ask me and im not guna let anything ruin today ^__^ and then she tells me that he told her,"im just going to ask heighlee b/c (_thegirlhelikes_) is too pretty." i just laughed and smiled and was like i dont care its ok (: but then when i thought about it, idk. i felt like a second choice, and i felt used. then to make it worse, i had him in all my classes that day. so i had him 1st period. i could barely look at him... like. i felt like i shouldnt because if i did, i had a feeling i'd just break down and start crying. how could he? and if you dont understand how crushed i was, think of it this way. you find out your crush was going to ask you out . your happy and all and your having a good day waiting for him to ask, almost sure he's going to. then your friend tells you he's just going to ask you because he cant have what he really wants. and he says shes too pretty, which he's technically calling you a downgrade of her. not pretty, average, probably even ugly. how would you feel? idk. so i tried not to think of it in 1st period. but then during recess, yazmeen reminds me how its ok i dont have a valentine and all. then when i thought about it, i just starting crying, and crying, and i couldnt stop. i felt like i've just held it in so long. i felt like heartbroken..  moving on though, i ignored him, couldnt even look him in the eye, snobbed him. i was just pissed. skipping to conclusion though, i didnt get asked by him. i didnt have a valentine. i did the right thing, told him to just build the gutts and ask who he really wanted.  he didnt know i knew what roxi told him. so yeah. he had no idea i cried about it. i dont even think he knows i like him. but yeah. along with my heart being broken, i had to encourage him to ask her. witness him asking her. her saying yes. only because i know he'd be happy with her, so yeah. but whatever. its just so. eh. i dont even want to think about it. i also had to manage to have a fake smile on the whole week. because i really wanted it to be a good one. but it was actually the worse. i was like a big emotional wreck. i was stressed because all our projects and homework assignments. and it was just a bad week. in leadership it was bad and stressful also. macky let savannah borrow her vest, and she never got it back. savannah still didnt find it, and now we are all screwed. its just another problem added to the many things i have on my "what to worry about, and why your stressed" list. i seriously had a enough. like. i know, this is my billionth time saying this. but im done. im not taking anymore crap. i need to get it together.. hopefully i can . im going to try, but idk what the chances of being successful is. wish me luck, and have a good week . bye.

this week? i had enough.

this week? i had enough. thats the title of this blog for the week. why? obviously,i had enough. im tired of having to be responsible for everyones OWN RESPONSIBILITY. i mean, yeah, i am a captain and all, but seriously?? some things are YOUR responsibility, not mines. im sick of having to remind people about their assignments that they know thats due, but dont do crap about it ! instead, they go talk, on their phones, scribble, do any kine ! like dude! you got work, finish it ! the one thing that irritated me the most though, is when i remind people to do stuff, they tell me "yeah " or "i will" and then a day later, i ask um if they did it and what do they say? "oh not yet. " then i ask them, "why?" then they say, "oh i dont know what to do for this, or this, " and it just makes me think. were you paying attention when i , errlyn , or megan said instructions?? or when mr.ing explained?? like, wtf?? asking questions i already said the answer to. ugh. im just so dissapointed and irritated. make me so stress you know?! like, i already have alot of stress in my hands, why do i have to put more stress, just for you ?! you obviously arent being a self directed learner, GLO #1 if you cannot do things on your own ! and have repsonsibility for your assingments ! moving  on though. well, there really isnt any other thing my week was about. it was just straight up stress ful. and this week, ahem** valentines week, i really dont want it to be bad. not because its valentines day week, i dont even have a valentine, so i could care less, but i just want it to be a good week because well. its supposed to be a good week. valentines week. love should be in the air ;3 ahah. well for me, just straight up happiness (: there's this person i want to be my valentine, but nah, lol he wouldnt ;p lol. if he did though *______* nah, no hopes up (x lol. im not going to hold my breath. but foreals, this week, it was not my week. i fell behind choke stuff. nothing like how i said i wanted it to be in my last blog ;/ it was actually nothing i wanted it to be. it was stressful all the way, and you know what, just plain stressful and bad. i cant handle all these projects ! the teachers literally are driving me nuts with all these essays and projects. mr.mitsuda is making us do a poem, ms.chin is making us do an essay, and for science, we have to make a project. i know, it doesnt sound like alot, but if you want the best quality on each of the assignments, then let me tell you, it wont be easy finding time to dedicate to each one . oh yeah, and im really struggling in just keeping my grades good looking ;/ its not the work honestly, its me. im not putting enough effort i guess. but there is the loads of stuff on my plate ;d i need to keep up. im so lazy these days thats why! -.- i always plan stuff, then bail eventually. ugh. whats wrong with me :( ? i seriously have no time, for anything. and its all because im either too lazy, or just too filled up with to much crap. i dont know anymore. i need to stop what im doing, and step it up. so tonight, im staying up to organize all my crap. its the middle of the night right now, and im half way through. i need to work on yearbook, AR maybe, and homework thats due on monday. thats my goal. but enough about my plans, this week. for leadership, we're doing alot. there's so much things we have to plan for. spirit week, orientation, and all the little things inside of the main activities. we also have to make sure none of our kids get on probation because we cant really afford anyone to not be in orientation at this point. the thing is though, i know i am a group leader and being in this position means i hold responsibility for not only myself, but for my kiddos too, but still. there's a line between me being responsible for you, and then theirs a point where you have to take care of your own responsibilities. i mean, whats your purpose here if i have to do everything for you? thats a load of crap. and i think im done telling my kids and reminding them about certain stuff. i will when i need to, but i'll tel them once, what they have to do, when its due, when to be done, and then after that, they're responsible for completing that. it just makes my life harder, having to worry about my assignments, and then 6 other people assignments. so yeah. its going to change from now on. and im done being nice. i'll have my moments, but i think i need to be more serious. i just seriously cant take this anymore. something NEEDS to change. k. well thats all for this week guys. besides all this negative energy in this blog, (sorry about that btw) i hope you guys all have a lovely valentines week <3 (:

1-28-13 ~ 2-1-13

monday ~~ hayy there bloggers and bloggets ;3 wassup. so today was good or somewhat. we had periods 1,3 and 5. during homeroom, i talked to my kids about how they need to start putting effort. so i set some rules to make sure they do. i mean, i know we should see if they care enough, but honestly, i dont want to take any chances. so me telling them they need to change, so do i . first of all, the reason why i talked to my group about all this and talked to them about changing, is that mr.ing told us that there is a new change starting next week. and that change is, if one person in our group does a late blog, no AR, or stuff like that, the main group leader and their group leader for their tiny group is on probation for the week , along with them. he showed us a list of who didnt do AR last week, who did missing blogs, and i seen that 2 of my kids didnt do AR last week. then when he told us the new change, i knew i had to do something about all this. so, during homeroom, i had a small meeting with my group. i told them that just for our group, im setting 2 rules. AR needs to be done on thursday, and blogs need to be done on friday. and im going to be checking on those days, if everyone in my group finished on time. also, in homeroom, and advisory and class time, im going to make sure their being productive and doing something they need to do. and these rules apply to me too so yeah, im going to change too. in period 1, we had a debate on abolition, that was fun. but we ended early because people in our class is dumb and they dont want to debate they just sit there -.- so yeah. in period 3, we were supposed to have a quiz, but turns out, she changed it. instead, we're going to be doing a teacher lesson next class, and that'll determine our "quiz" grade. im actually happy we changed to this. because im not really shy so its easy for me, lol. for period 5, i went to the band concert and missed math, because james campbell band came over and played for us. it was fun. they played good soothing songs too. relaxing ;p lol. then they also played pep music. that sounded coool. and i think that was all for today.. oh yeah, today was really different ;p because like. i like this boy, and then now its all awkward cuz he knoes (x like, oh gawd. lol. awka-awkward ~. so now im all scared because what if he doesnt want to talk to me now cuz i like him ? ;d bleh. see you tomrrow bloggers. night.

tuesday ~~ hayy guys and gales ! how was your day (: ? well i hope it was good. mines was going really well. until afterschool. i found out one of my friends are only being nice to me because he doesnt want me to be mean to him. so from when i heard about it, i promised my self from that moment on, i'd change. and im glad to say, this plan is actually coming through. i came home, did my chores, and went jogging. im really glad that im actually starting to jog. my plan is to go everyday, or every other day if i cant everyday. i like to jog because i get to relax and have "me" time. but i dont go alone, i go with a friend. ahah. also, part of my plan is to finish everything, such as showering, eating, and all that, by 8:30 - 9:00, and then doing homework, reading until i get sleepy. which so far, im coming through on. its 7:46 right now, and then im going to go eat, and then do homework and read after. but the other things i promised myself was that, im done being friends with the boy that is suppositly just nice because he doesnt want to get treated mean. why have a friend if they arent a true one? ha. im so fed up already. and also, im going to try and be more independent. im going to wear what i want, and do what i want, and go by only what i think. im not going to care on what people think of me. also, im going to try be nicer.. i guess im mean, and i have to work on it. moving on to periods though. for period 2, which is leadership, we worked on our speeches and worked on our dance. the speeches actually had a great outcome. i memorized me and zhaslyns part because it was easier that way. and then the dance is doing good ;3 lol. do dee hustle. doo-doo-doo-do-do-do-do-do. el oh el. then in period 4, which is english, we worked on our poems. for english, we have to create a poem, and its kind of hard. and finally the last period of the day, period 6, band. we worked on chorale suite 111, and pieces of eight. im kind of struggling. im going to try practice tommorow, since i brang my instrument home. oh yeah, and me and period 2 is trying to plan something, to spend more time. but it all depends if can. lol. so yeahh. and then me and my group is working lounge, and we're playing aladdin and that went well. andyeah, that was today ! hope you guys had a good day like me (x bye !

Wednesday ~~ hi again people. Well today was something else. Somehow, life tricked me once again, making me believe my parents were actually going to let me grow up (: life was leading me on, tricking me to believe that my parents actually trust me and are letting me grow up by making them let me go jogging , and you know , letting me do all this crap. Then today, life decided to tell me the real truth and laugh in my face . My dad said no, that I can't go jogging . And guess what? He thinks I have a fake boyfriend . Ha. i dont even wear makeup, i dont go out, what do i do that would make you think that?? So funny, I forgot to laugh. Well here I am. Probably only one of the teenagers that never get let out until they're 18. i mean, i know im only 13, but still. you know ,my friends and other kids my age, they go out, go partys, go cruise, smoke, drink and all that stuff. and all i want to do is go jogging , and i cannot . can you believe ?! i dont smoke, i dont drink, i dont skip school, i try hard in school, and all im asking is to go for a good jog to relax, and my parents say no. yeah, im only 13, but seriously. i am not asking for THAT much. but you know, just love this so much. I get to eat as much as I can, do homework , sleep , watch TV and get fat. yay me. well lets just continue with today. today was odd periods. for period 3 , which is science, we did our teacher presentation lessons. we sucked because we went first ;d nah, we did alright. then in period 5, which is algebra 1, we obviously, worked on math. lol. we did a worksheet on surface area, and yeahh. then for period 1, which is social studies , we did a debate, which i have to say, was varry awsome ;3 ahah. but besides all that, thats all i have. ahah. oh yeah, and we're almost done with aladdin. we only need like 5 more minutes and then pau. but yeah. well thats all today peoples. tomrrow, ill be back ;p

Thursday ~~ today, was plain .. we had periods 4,6 &2. i didnt get good rest last night. and that sucked because i had a boring class first. for period 4, i had english, which is always boring. we went over vocab section #3, and it went well i guess. i mean, it always does go well, it just goes by veryy boringly. then for period6, which is band, we worked on i dreamed a dream (my favorite) and i always feel like crying when i play it (x it's just so emotional that song ;p lol. and then after we practiced for a while, we had picture taking. and then yeah. for leadership, we did work. for me, i specifically worked on yearbook. i worked on my letter, which i'll probably type out tomrrow night for mr.ing to check . and yeah, that was all for today. not much interesting. oh yeah, and we finished aladdin, it was good ;p and my crush never came school. booo.

Friday ~~ FINALLY its FRIDAY ! i dont think you understand how much i love fridays. lol. im thinking about staying up all night and just watching movies, and doing girl stuff. lol. all by myself. sad. (x alll byy myselfff. but its ok, i havent had me time in 5evaa. well today was. so trajic. i dont understand if im on probation or not :( mr.ing said the wrong percent, and then when i met it, turns out im 1% away !! like omg -.- i starting tearing ;( like foreals. so close and den. ugh. i hope and pray i am not on probation. fureals. but classes today. ehh. boring. so boring, i dont even want to .---. well progress reports come out next week :( the stress. grades was all put in final today, so my teachers say. man. i got ALOT of explaining to do. i need to step it up and get up. im breaking my own promise to myself ! :( what is happining to me. im a wreck ;d oh yeah. i no longer have a crush on my old crush. cuz, no need crush. new game plan. tonight, do missing assignments and maybe even read. no more crushes from now on. from when i come home till im done with my homework, no phone. no TV, no friends over, nothing. only exception for a friend over is studying. MAYBE. depends. i need to start thinking whats BEST . and then, even when i finish my homework, no phone, friends, or all of that until my chores are done. then , and only then, i can go outside, jogging, etc. (: this better work because whatever im doing now, it's not happenin' for mee. its holding me back, and i need to let it go and focus. if no social life for certain times of the day is what i have to do for straight A's gots ta do what i gots to do. and then yeah. thats all for today, and this week. i hope you guys had a good week and i hope you guys have a even better one next week (: see you guys laterr.

this week ;D

Hi bloggers, its been a long week ;d and I apologize in advance, I don’t know exactly when I’ll get internet connection because right now, the internet isn’t working, so im writing this out on Microsoft… I hope it does soon, I don’t want this to be late -.- gawd. Whallle. Moving on to this week. It was a good week (: went by like a breeze. The only bad thing was I didn’t get to go bowling ;( I really wanted to ! but aye. It’s a lesson  well learned I guess… now I know, turn in forms on time and be responsible . I guess ;( its just so sad cuz I never even got to go on 1 field trip this whole school year ! D; so sad da life. But, this week we had a holiday on Monday >;3 yayers. But then it was back to school Tuesday and of course, no one was looking forward to that. Lol. I had odd periods that day. And guess what? We had unexpected HSA for science -.- yay. I suck at science ! and I didn’t even know they had HSA for science !

-.- like dude. Tf is this. But it went by  like a breeze I guess. Algebra and social studies that day was boring . we didn’t do much. Worksheet for math, and for social studies, we had a sub. Which really sucked cuz she is so sassy ! she was mean when I was trying to help out the new student because she had no idea what to do. So yeah. And she told me be quite. Like stfu lady -.- then there’s Thursday and Wednesday… oh yeah, my kind of days ;3 lol. Wednesday is a half day, which is not technically half a day because we honestly only get out 40 minutes before regular time. Which is good, but they just took that time out of like, the morning. Lol. So we really are just having a normal day. But lets just say it’s a half day ;p but on that day, it was evens. Yayers, my favorite. I forget what we did in period 2 .___. Oh yeah, we practiced out dance (x oh lawd. Atelast we’re getting somewhere doe (: makes me happae to see progress. HIIYA ! lolol. You go kevin the panda xD you cool. Just so fricken soft -.- cannot HIYA loud enough for errbody to hurr you ! for English that day, it was boring, as usual . we did poems though, and Im kind of interested. Its just him that makes the class boring. He talks to us like we kindergarteners and we never even learn about englis before ! like. Dude. Ok. Give us the lesson, we can figure it out and if we cannot, we’ll ask you for help. Then there’s band. Ahh, I love band lol. I could play for days ;p we practicing for leeward festival right now. We playing  3 japanese folk songs. They song pitch perfect (; then we’re working on pieces of 8. One of the worlds friken hardest songs ! ugh. What is this tom foolery. Lol. Aint no body play good enough to play that song ;p lol nah, we just really need to work hard. Then for the last song we’re doing, my favorite, I dreamed a dream. Omg, best song evaaa ;’) so da dramatic. Its so touching .lol. I feel like im about to tear when I play (x lolol. Then on Thursday, well. Nothing too interesting. Same as Tuesday.. on Friday, 7 of the leadership kids went bowling, while all of the others (including me) stayed back ;( it was so sad. But for period 2 I went band it was good I guess. They are just so behind ! well what do I expect, they are only 7^th grade ;p but still. And tbh, the trumpets suck (x nah nah nah. They cool. Just need more practice ;p  well. Internet still isn’t working D; ill try soon. Bye for now . ok, so i FINALLY got the internet to work (: ! but im like, 50 minutes late ;/ ugh. but i didnt have internet connection, so sorry.... have a good week guys, imma go hit the sheets now. goodnight (:

this weeeek.

starting nowww at 8:33 pm on saturday night .. lol ok just wana keep track of when i start and when i end (x welll. omg i wrote about each day everyday of this week, and then bam, i cant find the draft D; wahh.. man. ughhhhh. i had errthang on there ;( well i guess here i am now, re - writing it.

this week, i was stressed, mad, angry, pissed, and i dont think i was happy once. not to be a debby downer, but i really dont think this is my year ;( but im really determained to change that this weekend. it's a three day weekend, and that gives me more than enough time to prepare my self and get my stuff together. i am just a total wreck right now . like foreals. this week....

AR ~~ so for this week, i got the book a walk to remember. i never knew what happened in this book, i just knew that is was a good one and i heard it was really sad. also, it's written by like, a really good author, so i was expecting it to be very good. 1 week. isnt that supposed to be enough time to read 240 pages? heck yeahh. but no. i was so caught up with my science quiz, my math quiz, my social studies debate (which i found out on thursday, she's canceling!) , my science LSA's, i just forgot all about reading. so. on wednesday, and only wednesday, i starting reading the book. after wednesday, i got to page, 60. at the end of thursday, i was on page 90. on both nights, i was a fail because each night, i promised myself i was going to stay up all night to.... sorry, ill brb, my dads making me make him dinner, just because its his birthday -.- ugh. k brb. k back.. well as i was saying, i was going to stay up all nigh to finish the book so i could take a test the next day. but both of the nights ended the same way. ZzZzZz right after a few pages ! it was friday morning, at A101 and i was on page 97. haha. by after homeroom, i was on page 140. not bad yeah?? by the end of period two, 170.. by the end of period 4 , around 180. by the end of advisory, 200. now, period 6 was a really hard period to read during, because its band and its kind of hard to play a trumpet and read at the same time (x buttt. guess who finished the book 10 minutes before period 6 ended ^___^ ? this girl ;) ahah. i finshed, ran to A101 afterschool, took the test, and reached 48% (ithink?) of my goal ;D i was so proud of myself. lolol. i honestly, when i came to school on page 97 that day, i didnt think i would finish it. but i did and im reallly really proud ! and no, im not going to depend of that and think i can read that much in a day, starting this week, a new me. going library on monday, getting a good book, and im going to start reading for 1 hour a day. hopefully, i commit to that .

core classes ~~ core classes right now, are straight up stressful. in science, we've been having subs lately, because mrs.fujimoto had been sick (shes pregnant thas why). by next class, she's going to be checking, LSA #2 , LSA#3 , and LSA#4. and honestly, im only half way done with #2 -.- in social studies, we have just been taking notes after notes, each class, and i have to do a late paragraph because the class before last ones, we were assigned to do 1 paragraph, and i didnt do it. so thats that. in math, well, i got to say, i've been doing good in algebra 1 (: aha. except last class though. i forgot to do my worksheet :( who knows if that'll screw my grade up.. i truly hope it doesnt ;( then for english. in english, we're working on poetry. which actually, puts me in alot of luck, because i love poetry (x ahah. which helps me alot because lessons go by like a breeze. overall though, starting monday, no slacking. the day assigned the work, i do the work. completed and ready to turn in.

electives ~~ im doing good in band, that's a easy A... but for leadership, bro. i've been on probation all week -.- im going to try and talk to mr.ing to figure out a way on how i can make up my grade. i got F's for 5 days ;( maynn. this is why, i have to stop slacking. like foreals... its effecting EVERYTHING !! i slack, no work gets done. no work gets done, no A's . no A's, my grades go down. and then i screwed . so thats why, starting monday....

starting monday, im going to change. i know, im changing pretty late in the year. im going to be 21 days late. but better late then never right? from monday on, my schedule is going to change, and my attitude is going to change. foreal this time (x im actually going to make a list right now. im going to post a picture of the list, and throughout the week, everytime i do soemthing i planned on doing on my list, im going to check it off. k. Well, ill update this blog in like, 1 hour, and it'll have the picture of the list. k gtg eat cake for my dads b-day, byee for now (x

1.7.13 ~ 1.11.13

monday -- today was half bad, half good. first, the bad... it was bad because in music, we kept messing up. our announcements weren't clear and we were mumbling to much , also known as not being clear enough, haha. so since that happened, my day was starting off pretty bad ...  but it was my fault. so whatevers. on the good part, i had my core classes, and it all went well (: i finished my homework today too, for the classes i had today. did you get that? lol. so for example, i got assigned homework today, for science. and then, as soon as i got home, i finished it. even with good quality ;3 ahah. im really proud and i hope to do this all the time from now on because my grades was just not happenin' last semester. so this semester, i want to shoot and get straight A's all thee way (: well that was all for today. hope you guys had a good one, talk to ya' tomorrow. kayy baii.

tuesday -- hayy bloggers (: today was good and bad. ahah. more so good though. i'll start with bad, again. lol. well, i think i lost one o my close friends. but its alright. because im not apologizing. no matter what. i mean, i care about him alot and he was a good friend, but if someone doesnt want to be your friend, why waste your time trying to be their friend when all they're probably going to do is ignore you. so no. im not going to apologize or beg. second, there's this girl i hate and all. today, i started to feel bad for her because no one really likes her. but, part of my new years resolution was to not give in to her and like her again as a friend, so, i didnt go talk to her, i just felt bad for her. but then, she did something that pissed me off so much, i dont feel bad for her anymore. lol. so yeah... now the good things. LOL. well, i had a good day in my classes (: oh yeah, one more bad thing. AR . i mean, it isnt that bad. its just in my way -.- i swear to jesus, i hate reading. not reading, just, having to have to read by order and you know. you HAVE to. like, i'd probably read if i didnt have to. isnt that how it always is?? ahah. but moving on with the good things. band went well. we are practicing new japanese movements, which i am in love with <3____<3 lol yeah... then in leadership, we figured out some orientation stuff. loll (x them outfits though xD crack me up. then there was english. that class is only good for one reason, and one reason only. my crush (x lol. he's in there. i hope when we get new seats i dont sit next to him. that'd be cool and all, but oh gawd. i wouldnt want to sleep, talk, ort anything . LOL. foreals . i would probably faint just finding out he sits by me. oh geez, im all paranoid now. LOL. but that was my day ! write you guys tomrrow. increase the peace, have a mellow yellow wednesday and dont forget to play some fun run. LOL. ok bye.

wednesday -- today was pretty long and boring ;d end of story. lol. we did good at music, it's just sabrina wasn't here and we also forgot to put in the playlists for tomorrow and friday, which sort of got us in trouble...but ehh. It wana odd periods day so.. I expected it to be boring , ahah.

Thursday -- so like today.... Even periods. Yayers. But I can't remember that much of today, so nothing really important must of happened. So moving on...

Friday -- oh geez. The stress, the stress D; I think I lost the loads of hair today. Lol. I didn't finish my AR, and I'm a complete mess . I'm on probation next week, probably . I'm such a slacker ;/ ugh. I hate this . Why am I , the way, I am ? Fuu.

Well. That's all. Can't wait till next week.... Yay. Have a good one guys.

for the poster board

leadership has changed me in many ways. a year ago, i would cherish my free time to spend with my friends all the time i wasn't working. but now, i just like to stay in leadership with my friends in here. they're more friendly and they are drama free. they also understand me more than my other friends who aren't in leadership because they understand what we do in leadership and all. last year, when we didn't have work and during lunch, or anytime i could get to go outside, i would go and spend time with my friends every chance i get. and now, even when i don't work or have anything to do in leadership, i'm mostly always in here. i think this is a good change because there is no drama in here and i don't have to deal with people i don't like. plus its more fun to hang out with my friends in here. i also changed in my personality. in leadership and outside, i used to be shy to speak in front of a crowd. now, after talent show, t.v, announcements, meetings, and all that, i'm not shy at all. i have a lot of confidence and i'm not afraid to speak to a big crowd.i changed from a year ago to now, because before, i would care about what other people thought about me and stuff. but now,i could really care less about people's opinions on me and what they think. now to me, it only matters that i like what i'm doing.  not if others like what im doing. leadership also helped me improve on AR and with my grades. a year ago, i was really really bad in AR and on my grades.. i would turn in late work, and be really late with my AR. i think i'd be the last one to finish my AR too. but now, after a year of leadership, i work hard and i push my self to try my best in every class and i try to do my AR on time. also, this whole school year, i was never the last one to finish my AR goal, i finished before a couple of people at least. i improved on reading by a lot because now, I'm interested into these Lurlene Mccdaniel books, which really helps me with AR because i'm addicted to her books which helps me read faster. i think i changed in general though , with my attitude. at the beginning of the year, and even a year ago, i used to be really mean and i'd have the worse anger issues. but now, i still do, but it isn't half as bad as before, which is a good improvement. i am also more friendly. a year ago, when we had new students, i wouldn't talk to them. now, i introduce myself, ask them where they're from, and make friends with them. a bad thing that i changed from a year ago is being lazy. a year ago, i wouldn't slack at home and i wouldn't take long to do all my chores and homework and stuff. now, i'm so lazy that as soon as i go home, i grab a snack, lay down on my couch, and watch t.v. all the way from 3:00 pm to 6:00 pm. i just eat and watch TV and be lazy. this is a really bad change because it isn't a good habit... this was my comparisons on changes i made from a year ago, to now.