this week? i had enough.

this week? i had enough. thats the title of this blog for the week. why? obviously,i had enough. im tired of having to be responsible for everyones OWN RESPONSIBILITY. i mean, yeah, i am a captain and all, but seriously?? some things are YOUR responsibility, not mines. im sick of having to remind people about their assignments that they know thats due, but dont do crap about it ! instead, they go talk, on their phones, scribble, do any kine ! like dude! you got work, finish it ! the one thing that irritated me the most though, is when i remind people to do stuff, they tell me "yeah " or "i will" and then a day later, i ask um if they did it and what do they say? "oh not yet. " then i ask them, "why?" then they say, "oh i dont know what to do for this, or this, " and it just makes me think. were you paying attention when i , errlyn , or megan said instructions?? or when mr.ing explained?? like, wtf?? asking questions i already said the answer to. ugh. im just so dissapointed and irritated. make me so stress you know?! like, i already have alot of stress in my hands, why do i have to put more stress, just for you ?! you obviously arent being a self directed learner, GLO #1 if you cannot do things on your own ! and have repsonsibility for your assingments ! moving  on though. well, there really isnt any other thing my week was about. it was just straight up stress ful. and this week, ahem** valentines week, i really dont want it to be bad. not because its valentines day week, i dont even have a valentine, so i could care less, but i just want it to be a good week because well. its supposed to be a good week. valentines week. love should be in the air ;3 ahah. well for me, just straight up happiness (: there's this person i want to be my valentine, but nah, lol he wouldnt ;p lol. if he did though *______* nah, no hopes up (x lol. im not going to hold my breath. but foreals, this week, it was not my week. i fell behind choke stuff. nothing like how i said i wanted it to be in my last blog ;/ it was actually nothing i wanted it to be. it was stressful all the way, and you know what, just plain stressful and bad. i cant handle all these projects ! the teachers literally are driving me nuts with all these essays and projects. mr.mitsuda is making us do a poem, ms.chin is making us do an essay, and for science, we have to make a project. i know, it doesnt sound like alot, but if you want the best quality on each of the assignments, then let me tell you, it wont be easy finding time to dedicate to each one . oh yeah, and im really struggling in just keeping my grades good looking ;/ its not the work honestly, its me. im not putting enough effort i guess. but there is the loads of stuff on my plate ;d i need to keep up. im so lazy these days thats why! -.- i always plan stuff, then bail eventually. ugh. whats wrong with me :( ? i seriously have no time, for anything. and its all because im either too lazy, or just too filled up with to much crap. i dont know anymore. i need to stop what im doing, and step it up. so tonight, im staying up to organize all my crap. its the middle of the night right now, and im half way through. i need to work on yearbook, AR maybe, and homework thats due on monday. thats my goal. but enough about my plans, this week. for leadership, we're doing alot. there's so much things we have to plan for. spirit week, orientation, and all the little things inside of the main activities. we also have to make sure none of our kids get on probation because we cant really afford anyone to not be in orientation at this point. the thing is though, i know i am a group leader and being in this position means i hold responsibility for not only myself, but for my kiddos too, but still. there's a line between me being responsible for you, and then theirs a point where you have to take care of your own responsibilities. i mean, whats your purpose here if i have to do everything for you? thats a load of crap. and i think im done telling my kids and reminding them about certain stuff. i will when i need to, but i'll tel them once, what they have to do, when its due, when to be done, and then after that, they're responsible for completing that. it just makes my life harder, having to worry about my assignments, and then 6 other people assignments. so yeah. its going to change from now on. and im done being nice. i'll have my moments, but i think i need to be more serious. i just seriously cant take this anymore. something NEEDS to change. k. well thats all for this week guys. besides all this negative energy in this blog, (sorry about that btw) i hope you guys all have a lovely valentines week <3 (: