quarter 3 is donee.

as quarter 3 ends, we all prepare for quarter 4, hoping we'll get better grades, hoping we wont screw up, hoping we wont "forget" , hoping we wont mess up like we did in quarter 3. but all we can do is hope. i really hope quarter 4 will be good. all this whole school year, honestly? stressful af'. it'd be nice if quarter 4 went smooth. if we all got along, if i got straight A's on every assignment , if no one in leadership messed up on anything... if quarter 4 could be like that, wow. enough talking now, lets talk about quarter 3.

pro's

now, the reason im starting with pro's? there was more cons then pros. so mine as well just start off with the good stuff, and end with the bad stuff. right? some pros this quarter was, well some pro's was it took a lot to "break" me this quarter. or in other words, get me into a bad mood. aka, piss me off. i had a good temper, i guess you can say. also, track is a big pro for me. i'm actually involved in something i thought i'd never do. like, im proud of myself for trying it, and coming through with it. lol. i actually ran a mile. who would've thought, the girl who said she would never run, would run a mile. more so, race others in a mile. and although i didn't place for the mile, i did try and i didn't get last . which makes me proud of myself ;p another pro about this quarter is that my group was a happy group (: we barely had any tension or hate between each other. throughout the whole quarter actually, my period was doing good. we weren't messing up that much... but towards the end.. i'll talk more about it in the cons section.another pro was that we had spirit week. and although we had some problems, here and there throughout that week, the last day, omg. a day to remember actually. our school was full of spirit left and right. it was just a happy day. and yeah, i think that was all the pros throughout this quarter.

con's

lord, where do i start? especially the last few weeks of this quarter. well, let me start with some con's that was just happening the whole quarter. a broken family. tbh, i think of all the leadership kids as one big family. this quarter, we fell apart. some people, that were the closest before, just broke up. their friendships ended, and everything went downhill after that. and this affected everyone in leadership b/c these people would ignore each other, give attitude to one another, and it didnt help when one wouldnt help another. espically when one needed help ,and the other wouldnt even. it just really sucked. leadership relationships fell apart. another con was me giving up. there was a time when i just broke and gave up on trying .. assignments is one. i started to get lazy, so i gave up. stopped doing worksheets for alg. the worse part was knowing that i could've done it, i just chose not to.. and now look. a D as a final grade. yay. im so dissapointed. i know i could've done way better if i just did my work. another con was not reading. i gave up on reading after a while. i felt like i should just stop because i wasnt going to make it anyway. then my period was a con. my kids mostly. i dont know how to guide them. as hard as i try tell them not to do this, be good, do this, do that, i guess they just dont totally understand. they screwed up, and screwed all of us up. not cool. i guess you can count this whole quarter as a con. it was a big blurry mess. that i could've fixed, but i guess decided not to. sad right?

emotions

there was times in this quarter when i would just want to die to get away from all this stress. where i just wanted to drop to the ground and not get back up. where i just wanted to hit my head on the wall, punch the wall, there was times when i just wanted to yell in peoples face. tell them the straight up truth, because they were just that irritating. some people really need a reality check. now, the only people who ever made me mad was the people who are rude, ignorant , selfish, or just straight up irritating. some dont know how to be nice, which really got on my nerves. when they would, for example, slap someone, and expect the person not to care. but when they slap um back, they go all "wtf was that for?!" mode. like pfft. you know what, you need a taste of your own medicine, so good for you you get slapped. good. so as you can tell, this quarter i've been irritated to da max.

4th quarter goals

i hope for fourth quarter to be smooth. i hope i finish my AR early. i hope no one screws up. i hope we can actually work together.. i just hope everything goes well in quarter 4. everyone should know how to do everything by now, so we shouldnt have any mess ups anymore. its the last quarter of my last year at ilima. i just hope it turns out well. im really going to give each assignment my all. im going to study hard, im going to turn in every assignment on time, im going to put my 110% effort in school. and thats all i guess. so yeah. overall, i hope this can be a good 4th quarter .---. 

spirit week blog. late.

spirit week was hectic. i seen it coming though. i mean, it's the first time ilima was doing spirit week for awhile, of course it wasn't going to be flawless.

observations overall
my observations overall . first, i noticed everyone was working separately. this isn't a good thing. we're supposed to work together, so we all know who's doing what, this would've helped with people asking less questions. next, i noticed not a lot of communication. either someone wasn't listening, someone was trying to do things on their own, or someone was just not agreeing with others. it was a mess this way. some ignored others, which really didn't help with the problems we already had. i have to admit, i didn't help with my crappy attitude.

positives and negs about dress out days
positives about dress out. the positives of dress out days was that there wasn't a day where no one dressed out. even though not a lot of kids dressed out, there was always at least 10 people at the least that would dress out. also, some people went all out on certain days, which was entertaining to watch ;p negs on dress out days. some negatives about dress out days was that not as much kids as we expected to dress out, did. i was actually pretty disappointed in a lot of people for not dressing out on certain days. some negatives that had to do with people not dressing out was b/c we had to wear uniform still. this didn't help a lot and also convinced people that there was no point to dress out.

2 ideas for new dress out days & what days i'd replace them with
polka dot day --> culture day
turn back the clock pre-1950's --> turn back the clock before 2000's
the reason i would change polka dot day into culture day is because culture day would be pretty interesting to see. espicially since their is different nationality kids here in ewa beach. also, polka dot was boring. atleast at culture day, hopefully people would actually come through, and maybe be dressed in like a kimono, or you know, dressed like a immigrant, or plantation worker, lol idk, thats why it'd be interesting to see. espically the creative people. i'd also change turn back the clock pre 1950's to turn back the clock before 2000's because it gives kids a wide selection from anytime before 2000. they could even dress like egyptians if they wanted.

4 suggestions for mini activities 
one suggestion for a mini activity is draw a certain thing. this would be a good idea because we could say, for social studies, who can draw abraham lincoln the best . my second suggestion is life size problems. we can cut out big card board multiplication, division, add,subtract etc. signs, and then numbers 1-10 and then just make a answer, and then time whoever can figure it out the fastest. for example.. you have a timer ready. have each homeroom kid come in the room one at a time. you have the number 27 down, and all the other numbers and signs on the side. whoever can make put together the problem the fastest, wins. lol is that confusing? and then for english, we should have a spelling contest and whoever is the last one to spell the word correctly, wins. and lastly for science, we should see who can draw the solar system the fastest/nicest.

1 suggestion for big activity
a suggestion i have for a big activity is a maze. we can make it out of cardboard. have them find certain pieces, and then whoever has them all at the end, wins. this would be a good idea because the teams that stand on the 2nd level, can look down and see where their rep, is and it'd be funny to watch.

problems and how to avoid them next year
problems we had. not communicating, not listening, and not agreeing. also frustration. some gave atitude to others, disrespected others, and others already had problems with each other in the first place. to avoid these problems next year? stay committed, and push all your problems between each other , aside for awhile. this would've really helped. if we were all just friends and friendly during spirit week. it woudl've been way easier than it was....

overall? spirit week was . pretty good i guess. i hope everyone enjoyed. it was just hella stressful thats all.

this weeeek.

im so irritated. with everyone. i have been irritated for the longest time already, im getting used to it. 7th graders and fricken irritating. MOST OF THEM ALL ARE WANNABE'S. FAKE. it irritates the crap out of me. and lately, i've lost a lot of my close friends. i guess you can say they stopped being my friend. most of them. some of them i pushed away myself. but the main point of this is that although i lost a lot of friends this week, it was for the best  i guess. this whole year, it's just not that good. and its only march. haha. im just telling them the truth. if the truth hurts and if it costs a friendship for you to hear the truth, then fine. at least i told you the straight up truth. i mean honestly, i didnt tell all of them the truth. but majority, i did. bretman for example. i hit him and that's why we aren't friends anymore. and yeah he was a close friend. but atleast i gave him the truth. in a physical way. he hits the loads of people, they forgive him. he slapped so many of us, we forgave him. i hit him a few times, omg, end of the world. sorry bout it. at least now he knows how we felt. so i have no reason to apologize to him or even try and be his friend. who wants to be friends with someone who is mean AF to people he doesnt like?? i wouldnt want to be his friend again. he's too mean to be honest. the way he treats megan literally makes me want to slap him everytime he insults her. and then he tells trixie i thought her btq had ugly stuff and the price was expensive. STOP EASE DROPPING STUPID -ITCH . WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE SPREADING RUMORS? and then i hear that trixie told yazmeen, " i dont get why people dont like her because she talks about everyone." like, ok. speechless to be honest. if people want to hate me for telling them the truth, fine. but today at the car show when me and bret were "talking" i felt so dumb. arguing with someone who is just a waste of my time. i felt dumb wasting my breath arguing with him ! like are you serious?! k sorry for ranting. moving on, SPIRIT WEEK. this week was too stressful. maybe if i had good grades since monday, i wouldnt have been so stressed. the problems about spirit week? people coming in late, people not doing anything, people missing jobs, people not focusing, just people not doing the obvious. IRRITATING. thats literally all i have to say. dress out wasnt that bad the last couple of days. cheeroff was good. me and megan got in a huge argument on monday, and well our "friendship" improved. which is good. we have our moments. i was just mad. she left me there, clueless. wtf. but its over now. its just been a long stressful week. today, saturday at the car show, it went well. i just want to fly away to a different state. i suck at everything. ugh. i cant do anything without getting judged. i have so much regrets there literally isnt enough paper for me to write them all. k. thats all for this week. i hope this blog doesnt come out short. but i hope you guys all have a good week. OH YEAH. what i wanted to talk about . lastly, 7th graders. some seventh graders need to open there eyes. all they are seeing right now? boys her, boys there, all they do is revolve around boys ! i honestly have never seen so much girls thirsty for attention. seriously. who puts " ___ is the reason i cry.." attention whore. k bye have a good week see you guys all next week.

look through all your flaws and get real. (this weeks blog)

if your wondering why the title is "look through all your flaws and get real." its because this week and today (Saturday) i honestly got different point of views from a lot of different friends. also, i put that as a caption because I'm trying to say stop focusing on your flaws, and just live your life how you want to . lately I've noticed ALOT of my acquaintances have been just trying to impress everyone. and its pretty obvious that its because they have a lot of insecurities and they just care what everyone else thinks. and its getting hella irritating. "i dont want to dress like that ! he'll see me ! hell no ! " like are you serious. who cares what he thinks! nd yes, i have to admit , i get like this too sometimes. but at least i eventually come to my senses. but some girls are C-R-A-Z-Y. you are NOT better than every one else. so what they're smart. so what they might act "weird". so what they can be a little whack looking. AT LEAST THEY'RE ALL TRUE FRIENDS TO EACH OTHER. my friends that i usually hang out with during school "in the circle" are all just. idk. NOT ALL but most of them talk behind each others back, call each other names, gossip about each other, and then next thing you know " omg your like one of my good friends ! " ugh. and when they go talk to the " kids by the library" ... "omg it feels so weird hanging by them.." like seriously?! no. your actually on a LOWER class then them. they are all true friends. they dont talk about each other, they talk together about plans to go cruise and have sleepovers. unlike us. pfft. i dont even want to hang in that stupid circle. some girls in there think they're better nd all. no. you look stupid k, stop. K NOW TALKING ABOUT MY SCHOOL WISE WEEK (x

 spirit week is next week, and things are getting more stressful each and every day. espcially it doesnt help that my grades are dropping like anchors ;( i need to fix um'. hopefully i can... or i cant go to track. and like, i actually like track. i wouldn't think i'd like it, but i enjoy running everyday, even if i suck. LOL. i try though.. but for leadership, we practiced our dance, nd we planted our seeds this week ! and omg i forgot to water it .--. shucks.. and next week's spirit week already. i need to situate my self TONIGHT because i aint got no time to waste. this week is the 2nd to the last week of quarter 3. and then we have spring break, and bam. its quarter 4, the last quarter of 8th grade. yayers. but tonight, i seriously need to do the loads of assignments.. i need to organize what im going to wear everyday for spirit week, get my pennies and silvers ready for penny wars. i need to do some science LSA's, math worksheets, and i think thats all. oh wait, and my social studies paragraph. and on the side of that, i think im going to organize my btq.. the btq. lord. i think thats the reason im so dang stressed ! like gawd. if i cannot keep it together, i might just have to... Nah i love it too much . LOL. i just need to organize myself, or it needs to go. out the windoe. because its a foe. taking me down loe. (x lol. but yeah. that was all for this week i guess.. see ya guys next week, have a happy sunday guise.