hay bloggers and bloggets ;D well yea, as you can tell from my title, this is a late blog. dont ask why its late, its just late because it is.. no questions please. lolk. so this week was sort of just a big mess for me. my grades aren't looking so great, and just. ugh. so instead of doing a day by day description , im going to just do round up topics.
busy busy bee ~~ so this week, i was really busy. essays , homework, all that lovely crap. not crap but, lol you get the point. also, i had band practice everyday of the week. why? because i had a concert on tuesday and thursday. which, made my week even more cluttered. then, im getting a C in algebra, so i decided to go to tutoring after school on thursday, before my concert. i was so caught up in everything, i forgot about nearly all my science homework. i didnt do my LSA's when i had the chance to, and now , i have 2 finals coming up next week, for science and math. its just everything is so messed up. i didnt even do my science booklet yet which is due on tuesday. i just wish this quarter would end. im sick of it. oh yea, if one of you guys see the positive , energenic , smart , non lazy , non slacking, heighlee, can you guys let me know? shes been gone for quite some time and my life's been pretty crappy without her.
slacking ~~ not finishing work, when i KNOW i can. getting bad grades when i KNOW i can do way better. taking the easy way out when i KNOW its not helping me at all. what happened to the old me? thats all i've been doing lately. nothing. and i say im trying, but i dont think im trying hard enough. i actually am really dissapointed in my life. i try though. i try to stay positive, think of the bright side, but i cant. this break, im really determained to build a "better" me. someone who'll listen to her parents, do her chores, get straight A's , not slack at all. i just wish i could change. i want to. i really do. but everytime i try to, i fail. and the reason i dont tell this to anyone but my best friends, is because i dont wana be another one of "those" girls. who pitty themselves. "i know, im a bad kid, im sorry mom and dad, i know im a dissapointment." ugh, shut the hell up and do something about it instead of sharing to the internet about how bad you feel for yourself. little miss fishing for compliments.
people ~~you know lately, choke people have just been irritating the fricken crap out of me. im not even joking. the point where i just wana shake the fake outa them. i wish she'd catch a clue through these messages. but nah, she's too caught up in herself :) ahah. knowing her, she probably thinks we're the best of friends. ahah. no girl. so erking you already. i am just so happy i have the patience. well, not really patience, but like, im smart enough to think ahead and tell myself " dont do it. do you want to ruin your life? get kicked out of everything you live for? then what? be hated? " ya'll are lucky i have best friends to help me calm myself ;p ahah. idk, there is just too many stupid people in ewa beach.
leader ship work ~~ this week, for leadership we sort of mainly worked on yearbook cover. it was fun ! lol. it came out so nice. speaking of, i need to work on my year book cover...
well that was my week ! see ya in the next blog, which i will be doing next ;p ahah k bye bloggets and bloggers !! (:
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